I still have so many stories to share. However, I do have some regrets about making my letters to you public. One of those regrets, is making some of my dating life public. Ezra and I have talked about this a fair bit. Potentially it would affect you both a lot. He wants to make sure whatever happens, that it is going to make our life together better. He really likes to look after those he loves. As much as possible, he doesn’t want to see bad stuff happen to us. You probably will not remember this when you are older. Last summer you broke your tooth at the circus. Ezra almost had a meltdown. He screamed, “Why is bad stuff always happening to us?!?” You will never know how much he has cared for you. Behind the scenes when you are not looking or paying attention, he has taken great care of you. He loves you a lot. He is looking out for you and will probably do so, his whole life. He really is making sure any potential step-mom you get, is top-notch.
Ezra is pretty keen to see me happy as well. He is really sure I need a good girlfriend who can become my wife. (I’m a lot less sure about that.) He has a lot of company in this regard. So when I broke up with my girlfriend a couple weeks ago, we had a long talk about it. He thought she was one in a million. He really liked her and thought we were perfect for each other. To break up with someone that you love a lot, is a heart-wrenching experience, there is no way around that. This adult world is very complicated and I hope you stay kids for a long time. There are no good explanations for the behaviour of adults. We meet new people. We find them very interesting and compatible. We fall in love with them sooner than we should and more often than not, we realize we can’t continue the relationship. For one of a thousand different reasons, we can’t move forward with them. Almost for sure, this is going to happen with you in your life. I wish it wasn’t so.